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A 9-Month Initiation · March December 2025
Portalhood For Women & Nonbinary Healers, Creatives & Leaders
You are not at the beginning.
You are at the threshold.
A 9-month healing and transformational container for the healer, creative, leader, or soulpreneur who is ready to expand their nervous system's capacity, clear their channel for creative energy and intuition to flow through undistorted, and step fully into who they are becoming and what they are creating.
✦ Doors open February 17 · Opening Ceremony March 20 · Spring Equinox ✦
You have something forming inside you. It may not have a name yet, and it may not feel like a dream so much as a quiet pull, an unease with the life you've built, or a sense that the next version of you is waiting just on the other side of something you can't quite see. You've been trying to find your way there through programs, through practices, through sheer willpower, and something keeps getting in the way. Not your ambition. Not your capacity. Your channel.
You are shedding an old way of being, one that kept you functional, impressive, capable, and surviving, and you are mid-initiation into something truer, slower, more powerful, and far more alive. You are no longer who you were, but what you are becoming hasn't fully landed in your body yet.
This in-between has a name: Portalhood. It is the fertile void, the liminal space, the place where nothing looks finished, but everything is rearranging.
And that is why what you've tried before hasn't worked.
You've done the circles, the workshops, the programs, the aesthetic rituals that look like healing but lack potent medicine. They addressed symptoms, parts, and productivity without touching the deeper mechanism: your nervous system's capacity to hold what you are calling in, and the clarity of your channel to source energy, to the creative intelligence, the field, the universe, whatever name you give it.
When your nervous system is not calibrated to hold more, it doesn't matter how much you attempt to change or call in a new way of being. Imagine pouring into a chalice that is cracked. No matter how much goes in, it leaks out and the chalice remains just as empty as before. Part of the work inside Portalhood is to repair those cracks, much the way Kintsugi does, rendering the vessel stronger than it was, increasing its capacity to hold what is poured into it, so that where it pours next is by choice and not by accident.
"Heather's blend of energy work, somatic work, connection to source energy, and grounded thinking is powerful beyond description. Each session is different, yet every time she helps me access deeper insight and a truer sense of self. The results have been tangible: creative flow, physical healing, trauma integration, and a deepened trust in myself. You leave feeling clearer, more grounded, and more fully alive."
— Tricia C.
Resonance vs. Distortion
You don't lack discipline. You probably just have some distortion in your channel. Portalhood is the work of clearing it.
Resonance
- Feels alive rather than forced
- Clarity without strain
- Effort present, but not coercive
- Doesn't require self-betrayal
- Leaves you more resourced, not depleted
- Emerges when your body leads timing
Distortion
- Pushing through exhaustion
- Creating to be seen, chosen, or safe
- Urgency mistaken for truth
- Creating from competition or the need for external validation rather than genuine enjoyment
- Needing output to justify existence
- An intelligent adaptation, not a personal flaw
A tuning fork doesn't create the frequency. It reveals it by removing the interference. This is what clearing your channel does. The signal was always there. Portalhood is the work of removing what has been distorting it.
You might be standing here
You are highly capable, someone others rely on. You've built a career, a practice, or a life that looks solid, and you're exhausted. Slowing down feels risky. Rest brings up anxiety. Creativity feels distant, even though it matters deeply to you.
You are the one who holds everyone, emotionally, energetically, and practically. You are intuitive, nurturing, and powerful, and you rarely feel held in return. Care has been expected of you, praised in you, and extracted from you, often without reciprocity.
You walk in many worlds: third culture kid, multiracial, multicultural, child of immigrants, neurodivergent, queer. The group spaces you've been in have rarely accounted for the full complexity of your identity, who you are in history, in lineage, in body.
You know, quietly or clearly, that you are gifted, intuitive, perceptive, powerful. And you hide that part of yourself. Visibility has not always felt safe. Preparation and refinement have become a way of staying protected while you wait for the right moment.
Your soul is craving something that has not fully taken shape yet. You sense it more than you can name it, and the life you have built, as full as it may appear, does not quite hold it.
You are on the precipice of something that terrifies and exhilarates you at the same time: a project, a business, a child literal or metaphorical, a new way of living altogether. You are not ready to do it alone, and you are done pretending you are.
Do you recognize yourself here?
These are not diagnoses or identities. They are survival strategies, intelligent adaptations to conditions that weren't safe. Most people in Portalhood carry more than one.
The Flooded Visionary
"I have so many ideas and desires but not enough energy or focus to see them through."
Brilliant and behind at the same time. More ideas than they can hold, more feelings than their body knows what to do with. Exhausted by their own mind. Pattern recognition and deep imagination are their gift. Their sensitivity is not the problem. It is the source.
What would you create if you gave one idea your full, unhurried attention?
The Relentless Achiever
"If I am useful, capable, and exceptional, I belong and have value."
Driven in a way that does not feel like a choice. Proud of what they build and quietly terrified of what would happen if they stopped. Rest does not feel like rest. It feels like falling behind. Often the most competent person in the room and the loneliest.
Who are you when you are not being useful to anyone?
The Neglected Nurturer
"I am the one who holds everyone else, even when I am aching to be held."
Warm, quietly burnt out, and uncomfortable receiving care. The resentment rises and the guilt follows immediately. They say I'm fine reflexively. Deep empathy and attunement are their gift. They create genuine safety for others. They give until they are empty, rest just enough to give again, and call this love.
When was the last time someone held you without you having to manage their experience of doing it?
The Heretical Hermit
"My medicine is potent, but being visible feels dangerous."
They come alive alone or with the rare few who do not require them to explain themselves. A rich inner world and a long history of being punished for it. Their work sits in folders no one has seen. They long for community and pull back at the exact moment it becomes available.
What are you ready to share that you have been waiting to be perfect first?
The Devoted Descendant
"I carry more than just my own life. I carry for my lineage."
A profound loyalty to where they come from and who came before them. That devotion is real, and it is also a weight. Every choice feels like it has more stakeholders than just themselves. Breaking patterns feels like abandonment. Intergenerational awareness gives their work unusual depth.
What are you carrying that was handed to you without your consent?
Heather Udomrat
Somatic Energy Healing Facilitator · Diwa Collaborative
I created Portalhood because I wish a program like this had existed for me, especially last year, when I left my office, closed my business, and started a new one all in the span of a few months. I was encouraged to take a leap of faith in myself. But none of the coaches I worked with were focused on making sure my nervous system was calibrated for and could actually hold what I was creating and calling in.
Desire and inspiration are exciting. They are also unsustainable if the ecosystem around you keeps you burnt out, disconnected from yourself and your community, and working against your own natural rhythms. This program was born from everything I have learned in my own healing and in 13 years of evolution as a practitioner.
I am a half-Thai, half-Caucasian American woman who grew up in Bangkok and came to San Francisco in 2005. I am bisexual and a survivor of sexual assault and domestic violence. I've known poverty and wealth. For much of my twenties, I ran from my pain by throwing myself into work, self-medicating, and trying to save everyone around me instead of facing my own wounds.
I am a recovering codependent who also navigates ADHD. I know what it is to armor yourself in competence and hyper-independence to stay safe. I know what it takes to come back to your body after it has been a dangerous place to live. And I know what it means to be truly held by work that doesn't rush you through your complexity.
I share this because the way I hold space is inseparable from where I have been. When you work with me, you are working with someone who continues to dance with life's cycles of death and rebirth again and again. You are working with someone who honors the complexity of your being.
13 years in practice. Advanced ThetaHealing Practitioner, Trauma-Informed Breathwork Facilitator, Somatic Mind-Body Coach, Reiki Level II, and Family Constellation Facilitator in Training.
Three trimesters. One initiation.
The container moves with the seasons, the moon, and your natural cycles rather than against them. Spirit, land, and ancestors are called into every session. They are not a theme for one month. They are the ground the whole container stands on.
Safety, Belonging, and Intuitive Attunement
We open with ceremony and call in the shared language of the container. The central work of this trimester is learning to access intuition through the body: becoming attuned to the clairs as pathways of knowing, developing your somatic yes and no, and building the energetic hygiene practices that keep your channel clear. Once you can feel your own signal, you can receive from others without losing yourself. The trimester closes by landing in relational depth with the group.
Processing, Healing, and Unblocking the Channel
Money, receivership, abundance, and pleasure are explored together as one thread — how you receive any of them traces back to the same early relational wounds and the same body beliefs about what you are allowed to have. Tracey-Ann Rose joins to help participants understand how they are individually wired to work and receive. We then move into grief, trauma, and neural rewiring, building the capacity to feel without falling apart. The trimester closes with cathartic breathwork and somatic art: creativity as what naturally emerges when the channel finally has room.
Receivership, Visibility, and Becoming
The final trimester asks you to be seen and to receive fully. Pleasure and sensuality are explored as creative and magnetic intelligence. We work with visibility and what it actually costs you to be seen, and whether that cost is still true. The container closes with ancestor gratitude, letting go rituals aligned with Samhain, family constellations for each participant, and a closing guided journey.
The container
The work draws on somatic and body-based practices, energy healing, ancestral work, and group breathwork, woven together rather than applied separately. It is constellation-like in nature: following the thread of what wants to unfold in you, noticing the patterns in how things are woven together, and resting when your body says not yet, even when your mind and everyone around you says go.
18 Group Sessions
Two 90-minute live sessions per month, roughly biweekly, recorded. Every session includes somatic and energy work. Sessions draw on Theta healing, guided visualization, breathwork, neural rewiring, movement, somatic art, oracle pulls, and journaling as needed and as the group calls for it. No two sessions are the same.
Peer Support on Telegram
A practitioner-held peer community between sessions. Not another group chat but a living container for integration and real relationship.
Recordings & Downloadable Resources
All sessions are recorded. You also receive guided meditation recordings and downloadable materials including slides and handouts to support your integration between sessions.
Rotating Buddy Groups
Intimate groups of two to three that shift each trimester, so you build real relationships across the whole container rather than staying in one corner of it.
Trimesterly Remote Reiki
Once per trimester Heather sends distance Reiki to all participants. No attendance required it happens on your behalf and you receive personal notes on whatever came through.
Guest Facilitators
Two confirmed guest facilitators bring their own medicine to the container, woven in where they serve the arc of the work.
Tracey-Ann Rose
Spiritual Sales Coach · Astrologer
Tracey-Ann helps spiritually-led entrepreneurs build their businesses from the inside out integrating intuition with strategy, and using your astrological Big 3 to align how you sell, show up, and grow. Her work weaves astrology, human design, and decolonizing frameworks into a practical, soul-centered approach to business.
traceyannrose.com ↗
Lella Sá
Matrifocal Leadership · Regenerative Productivity
Lella works with leaders who are ready to stop running their businesses at the cost of themselves. Her matrifocal leadership approach roots work in natural rhythms, well-being, and a partnership mindset so growth becomes sustainable, humane, and aligned with who you actually are rather than the machine you've been asked to feed.
lellasa.com.br ↗Family Constellations (Bonus)
Offered in October and November as Heather completes her year-long certification in December. Real, embodied work at no additional cost, offered with full transparency.
Choose your level of support
Group Container
$2,900 pay in full
or $333/month for 9 months
- 18 live group sessions (90 min, roughly biweekly), recorded
- Guest facilitators: Human Design, cycle syncing, menopause guidance + more
- Family Constellations sessions (bonus, Oct–Nov)
- Peer Telegram community
- Rotating buddy groups (trimesters)
- Optional end-of-year retreat
Group + Private Sessions
$3,900 pay in full
or $444/month for 9 months
- Everything in the Group Container
- 6 private 75-minute sessions with Heather
- Two sessions per trimester
- Deeper somatic and energy work, personalized integration
- Family Constellations sessions (bonus, Oct–Nov)
Not sure yet? Keep reading or scroll to the bottom to schedule a free alignment call with Heather.
What becomes possible
These are not new identities to perform or achieve. They are states you will find yourself inhabiting, briefly at first, then more consistently, as safety, trust, and integration build inside the container.
The Sovereign Star
"I trust my highest self to be my north star, and tune out the external noise drowning out my intuition."
Coherent. Everything lines up body, choices, timing, work. You are not at war with yourself. You trust your own timing as a lived reality, not a belief. Discernment has replaced force. You create without urgency. You are collapsing timelines and healing your whole lineage through love rather than obligation.
Sovereignty
The Boundaried Brat
"My boundaries keep me protected, and they are also the guidebook for how to love me."
Bold and unapologetic about what you want and what you will not accept. Uncompromising on your limits and not afraid to walk away. Some call that bratty. You call it honest. Your boundaries arise from self-love and not just from self-protection. Your presence gives others permission to want what they want.
Sovereignty
The Wellspring
"I give from abundance, and what flows through me is replenished by Source."
You embody creative flow, fertility, nourishment. You found the deep source. You give as long as Source is flowing through you and the channel stays clear. Steady without performing steadiness. Present without losing yourself. You embody what it looks like to give without it costing your aliveness.
Resourced power
The Reverent Reveler
"My pleasure is not indulgence. It is what makes life worth living and where I create from."
You stopped rushing past what feels good on the way to being useful. Shame told you your pleasure was frivolous. Now you let it in and what you create carries it. Your enjoyment is genuine and people feel the difference. What you create is magnetic because it was made from a body that was actually alive. You share your gifts and creations with confidence and legitimacy.
Capacity
This is not the right space for you if:
You do not believe in the full humanity of all people and their inherent right to dignity and safety, regardless of race, religion, gender identity, sexual orientation, age, or ability.
You are at the start of your healing journey and are not yet resourced for deep group work.
You are uncomfortable in spaces where menstrual cycles, queerness, or the realities of BIPOC and marginalized experience are held as central rather than peripheral.
You are content with the status quo of toxic patriarchy, capitalism, and colonialism and uninterested in examining how they live inside you.
You are joining primarily due to external pressure rather than your own genuine desire to create, heal, or live differently.
You are not late.
You are not lost.
You are already crossing.
You just don't have to do it alone anymore.
Your people are inside Portalhood.
Questions? Write to Heather directly at [email protected]